Ever since I was a little girl I wanted to be a mom. A stay at home mom. In sixth grade my teacher went around the room asking what people wanted to be when they grew up, he got to me, and I proudly (guys, I'm talking proud proud) said " A stay at home mom, just like my mom!!" The classroom started laughing. They were sixth graders so of course they were laughing at me. They said "Thats not a job!" My teacher quickly came to my rescue. I was the fourth of my family to have him for six grade, he told them " Don't you dare laugh. I have known her mom for years, and that woman is the hardest working mother out there." he then went on to give a ten minute lecture on how awesome MY mom was. It's pretty easy to guess that I had stars in my eyes when I went home to my mom that day. I remember thinking that my mom was like a superhero.
Even though I already knew that I wanted to be a stay at home mom before then it just reaffirmed to me that I wanted my kids to feel the same sense of pride for me that I did for my amazing mother! I wanted to garnish so much respect for being the best mom that their teachers would preach to all their classmates about how awesome I was!
Lately I feel like that six grader again. Sitting in that classroom while everyone was laughing at me. But instead of six grade kids, its housing cost, salary wages, college degrees, and monthly bills that are laughing hysterically at me. Where I live in California it is unheard of to only have one working parent. I sit every two weeks and have nothing but bills looking up at me basically telling me that if we want to progress in life either my husband will have to get a HUGE raise, or I will have to start working. I just don't accept that. The little girl in me is constantly yelling, "Don't give up!!"
I refuse to let the world decide what my life will be. I know what I want in life, I know what my family needs. I know that some of those things need sacrifices to be made but I will make them if it means that I get to raise my family the way that my husband and I want.